Graphic Novel „Dich hatte ich mir anders vorgestellt..“
When your greatest fear becomes reality...
“There are many possible diseases and disabilities with which a child may enter the world. The kid can be born with only one arm, she or he may become ill with leukemia, and for all I know? However, the biggest fear was the Down syndrome”, said Fabien Toulmé. Moreover, as if it were irony of fate, his greatest fear becomes reality. In his autobiographical graphic novel, "Dich hatte ich mir anders vorgestellt…", he tells the story of his daughter Julia, who was born with the Down's syndrome. In France, the book has enjoyed popularity - not only among the persons concerned.
It is a disturbingly strong, under the skin-going story of a father, who ruthlessly surrenders himself and his broken emotional world. “I just wanted to tell a story. My story, I did not know if I would face acceptance or rejection. In addition, if someone did changed her or his mind about the Down syndrome, then I am delighted. But it was not the reason why I wrote the comic”, the French engineer once said in an interview with "Deutschlandfunk".
His line is fine, black and reduced to the essentials to leave room for the breakdown of his world, the disgust he feels with his own daughter and the rage on her, his wife, the world - and not least on himself.
Yet it is not a story bowed by grief. It is rather the drawn story of a father who is approaching his daughter gradually. A father, whose public rejection is actually taboo. A father who cannot or does not want to touch his disabled daughter even after months? Unthinkable and yet bitter past for Toulmé.
There are the drawn phases of rejection, acceptance, as well as of love, which are told in differently timed phases in "Dich hatte ich mir anders vorgestellt…". Based on haunting key moments, Toulmé describes the personal history of his family.
His very own humor and the cuddly-looking French-Belgian characters provide the rest.
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